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Watercolor Rorschach


There is so much going on right now. As newly weds we are having a bit of our downs with the relentless work ,and keeping time to be together. But lately, I’ve discovered something that always seems to get my week started right: Watercolors.

Here and there I’ve started to carry a new sketchbook with thick paper around (a gift from my wonderful husband) and making sketches when I can in between grabbing a bite to eat and sitting in at meetings. Vida came to my mind the other day; she is a grey ghost I wish to never rid myself of, and I made this as a sketch.

After finishing my shit a few hours ago, I cleaned my desk clean and started to paint. Now I’m sharing her with the rest of you lovely people. She is currently my Rorschach, my meditation that this is a beautiful story to be told.

Thank you for being a part of my week everyone! I hope this brings you cheer as it did me at the end of my week. (In the case of most of you, a great way to begin yours)


The Truth About Muses

Project Italy Promo 2014

The Fate Pendulum team is less than a week away from our big reveal debut at Ninjacon 2014. As the Director/Co-writer I am going through so many emotions right now, and I thought I would share it with you all.

We’ve been preparing for our panel, finally announcing our lovely up and coming cast. We’ve been spending endless sleepless weeks preparing the content, artwork, and flyers to reach out on this project. I feel the aches and pains in my shoulder and weary eyes, but I can’t help but feel like this is one big De Ja Vu. I remember this feeling… from about 8 years ago… I remember when I first got serious about writing the Fate Pendulum novels, after the play I knew that this story could speak more to me. It’s a story about the human condition, it brings the question of the heart to both hero and villain. When my pen hit the paper there was no going back.

When it all comes down to it, I was a much happier person those 8 years ago. Because as the Birds fly, the Writer wrote, and the Director directed. Yes fellow artist and supporters, the De Ja Vu of pursuit of the dream is a very blessed and humbling experience. In the mysterious world where there are haunting pasts, cataclysmic ordeals, and aching desire for a family I have found my abode.

My lesson of the week: Keep going or your only half a person.

Muses are there to allow us to live. The chase of them alone is a rush, but a cooperative relationship with them is bliss. As life got ‘busy’ with school then work, that relationship eroded on my end. I am so gracious that my muse is strong (it helps that my husband follows the same muse, but lets leave that for another post). I look at the art from my hands and I am blown away to see that vision that has been crept for away for so many years. I see the subscribers and followers to this page and I am blown away with the support! How selfish would it be for me to have kept Fate Pendulum pent up in my mind away from the rest of you? The poor Muse carrying the stigma of  being selfish, but in the end, isn’t it us that our selfish neglecting our gifts to share?

Others are just as blessed with my muses relationship as I am. For the process and the results are a journey of awareness.

If you are stopping by Ninjacon this year, please look for our table at the entrance of Artist Alley (We’ll be covered in a blue tapestry). We’ll be holding a raffle to give away 4 tickets to Ninjacon 2015! We’ll also have lovely postcards of the above artwork to take home for free. Our panel will be at 3:00 PM in Garden Room B.

We look forward to seeing everyone! Thank you once again for the overwhelming support, from the bottom of our hearts!

Sympathy For The Mafia

Remember The Godfather, Good Fellas, even the old Al Capone movies? The romanticism of how a group of thugs ruling the world in secret, through crime and murder. Remember? Dabbling in the idea is fun, but suppose you needed a good hard look in what it really means to be human within a few episodes. Wouldn’t you peek in with the lowest of the low to see what God allows to exist, under his grace? Someone with a conscience, someone who will sin, and someone who can fight to live?

In Project Italy, I wrote that Joshua Ayala worked for the Mafia as a bodyguard for his Boss’ daughter. The idea was to exhibit the standards of morals in a private circle. These days, we find that capital punishment is the only right reason to prove executions justifiable. But in feudal eras around the world, taking action on your own was normal. So if one did not live in the modern legal system, what system would they actually follow? That is, if they ever did have a need for such a thing.

Across the globe, old feudal governments have left remnants of the old world in not just artifacts and artworks, but with certain societies themselves. In Japan, the old Samurais roam as the Yakuza, functioning as a criminal syndicate to fortify their centuries’ old traditions; in Italy, the old Crusaders function as a Mafia in Sicily, commiting crimes in a global scale secretly through “Cosa Nostra”; Hell’s Angels do the same, and many others too go by their old code of honor, or chivalry as our history books call it, in one shape or form. Their purpose is defending their tradition, even if it means to sabotage the new ones. It’s kinda like Religion, but with a little more theft going on.

To associate Ayala with people like the Mafia was to give a more complex sense of humanity for the character’s development. Imagine who it must be to uphold honor in the face of the law, even if it was illegal. Would your sense of loyalty falter, or would you fight to save your family? The government wouldn’t understand. The depth of the syndicate digs deeper than just one heist – they wouldn’t know what fighting to stay alive meant, or how many people rely on your family’s dignity to function their culture, as a family, as a tribe, as a Society. You would be a fool to destroy it. The new government finds all of the Mafia’s ancient properties invalid, and Politics have demolished the old world – the same world that your family needs to live traditionally and socially.

To put it in a better perspective, we no longer have slavery as a norm in the western world. Abolishing slaves killed the Blue Bloods’ way of life for a couple of centuries, and now they have to pay the new standard wages to keep a Nanny – when the wages in the 1800s weren’t even half the amount comparitively by conversion or tax-wise. It’s inflated, by far! I mean, if servants were paid with our salary nowadays, almost half the population would’ve paid off their debt as slaves, and would be walking as free men before the end of the Civil War. Now, old money circulates between the Blue Bloods alone, and the new ones die with every recession our country suffers – though replenishes quite well afterwards.

But nonetheless, the Mafia go to Church, do community charity work, and kill anyone that gets in the way of their livelihood. To them family comes first, even if it means Prison. They will do whatever it takes to keep their chivalrous way of life alive. Anything beyond that is judgment under God. Anarchy at its best!