A Paranormal Epic

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Watercolor Rorschach


There is so much going on right now. As newly weds we are having a bit of our downs with the relentless work ,and keeping time to be together. But lately, I’ve discovered something that always seems to get my week started right: Watercolors.

Here and there I’ve started to carry a new sketchbook with thick paper around (a gift from my wonderful husband) and making sketches when I can in between grabbing a bite to eat and sitting in at meetings. Vida came to my mind the other day; she is a grey ghost I wish to never rid myself of, and I made this as a sketch.

After finishing my shit a few hours ago, I cleaned my desk clean and started to paint. Now I’m sharing her with the rest of you lovely people. She is currently my Rorschach, my meditation that this is a beautiful story to be told.

Thank you for being a part of my week everyone! I hope this brings you cheer as it did me at the end of my week. (In the case of most of you, a great way to begin yours)


The Truth About Muses

Project Italy Promo 2014

The Fate Pendulum team is less than a week away from our big reveal debut at Ninjacon 2014. As the Director/Co-writer I am going through so many emotions right now, and I thought I would share it with you all.

We’ve been preparing for our panel, finally announcing our lovely up and coming cast. We’ve been spending endless sleepless weeks preparing the content, artwork, and flyers to reach out on this project. I feel the aches and pains in my shoulder and weary eyes, but I can’t help but feel like this is one big De Ja Vu. I remember this feeling… from about 8 years ago… I remember when I first got serious about writing the Fate Pendulum novels, after the play I knew that this story could speak more to me. It’s a story about the human condition, it brings the question of the heart to both hero and villain. When my pen hit the paper there was no going back.

When it all comes down to it, I was a much happier person those 8 years ago. Because as the Birds fly, the Writer wrote, and the Director directed. Yes fellow artist and supporters, the De Ja Vu of pursuit of the dream is a very blessed and humbling experience. In the mysterious world where there are haunting pasts, cataclysmic ordeals, and aching desire for a family I have found my abode.

My lesson of the week: Keep going or your only half a person.

Muses are there to allow us to live. The chase of them alone is a rush, but a cooperative relationship with them is bliss. As life got ‘busy’ with school then work, that relationship eroded on my end. I am so gracious that my muse is strong (it helps that my husband follows the same muse, but lets leave that for another post). I look at the art from my hands and I am blown away to see that vision that has been crept for away for so many years. I see the subscribers and followers to this page and I am blown away with the support! How selfish would it be for me to have kept Fate Pendulum pent up in my mind away from the rest of you? The poor Muse carrying the stigma of  being selfish, but in the end, isn’t it us that our selfish neglecting our gifts to share?

Others are just as blessed with my muses relationship as I am. For the process and the results are a journey of awareness.

If you are stopping by Ninjacon this year, please look for our table at the entrance of Artist Alley (We’ll be covered in a blue tapestry). We’ll be holding a raffle to give away 4 tickets to Ninjacon 2015! We’ll also have lovely postcards of the above artwork to take home for free. Our panel will be at 3:00 PM in Garden Room B.

We look forward to seeing everyone! Thank you once again for the overwhelming support, from the bottom of our hearts!

The Biggest A-hole In Heaven

When creating an Angel, many of the traditional references bored me. The idea of a holy creature traveling lightyears, from heaven to earth, just to announce, “Don’t be scared, I just wanna tell you something”, didn’t make much sense to me. I know the Bible explained that these divine beings obey God, like no other, but there are evidence of their personalities brought up all over the Old and New Testament. My favorite one is in Revelations, where one Angel is about to unlock the gate of the Beast, a prophecied creature of epic proportions that was prepared to battle beside Satan, against God. Now, I would encourage you to read this book, because 1) it sounds awesome, but 2) it shows how bad God seriously does not want to eliminate two of his creations – 1) the Angels who fell from heaven, and 2) mankind. I imagine it’s like burning two of your novels you spent half your life writing, because they both caused something as atroucious as World War 2: on one hand, it killed a lot of innocent lives, but on the other hand, Hitler gave Germany the Volks Wagon Beetle – an economical car to save on gas, aesthetically pleasing to the eye, and had enough room for a vacation sized trunk. Today, we can’t help but buy economical vehicles to continue business and family life in our modern world.

We were talking about Angels, weren’t we? Yes. Of course we were… Anyways, there is this one particular Angel that rushed to open the gate, to release the Beast, and another Angel had to stop him/her [it] from accomplishing this task prematurely. I personally like the idea that this Angel had his last straw, and wanted to do something already. I mean, centuries of waiting on God’s timing must be excruciating! It took 400 years for Jesus to appear as the Messiah, since the prophecy was told, and look how that turned out! Poor Mary had to live with her Sister until the child was born…the shame she must’ve endured. This Angel was probably no less granted any high honor either, but it was recorded. And that problem was averted pretty quick. Even heaven has issues with micro-management. Which leads me to believe that with personalities come flaw.

Remember Lucifer? That douchebag tried to take over heaven, and ended up getting his wings clipped. Now, he roams around earth, being called Satan, or Beelzebub, or whatever dark horse character people wanna call that ex-cherubim – lying in people’s ears to deter them from God, in preparation for (yet again) the battle in Revelations. Sounds kinda like the concept of Valhalla, but that’s for another time… Imagine what it must be like to stay in heaven, still susceptible to sin and temptation – knowing that if you ever say “God sucks” that Hell was the only alternative you had. Wouldn’t you be jealous of mankind?

Think about their position (the Angels): since God is standing right next to them, in heaven, wouldn’t any form of doubt be dismissed or punished without question? In contrast with us, where we don’t see Him or hear Him, from a distance – the liberty of becoming an Atheist, Agnostic, or even Buddhist would be all too convenient – given the endured social repercussions. Wouldn’t you be mad over that clause? Humans are exempt from immediate judgement! I understand that the Angels have no reason to forget God, and just do their own thing without consent, but wasn’t that why the USA broke away from the British Empire?

So here’s the beauty of the Angel in Fate Pendulum: since God allows good and evil to choose their side, and humans have the liberty of being forgiven for their sins, until judgement day, we created an Angel that is actually irritated with mankind. His name is Creed, a Seraphim watching over Joshua Ayala – the personified gate keeper of Sheol. He is blunt, he’s sarcastic, and though he may narrate in Poems, he doesn’t show any sympathy for the poor creations God protects, before judgement day.

One other inspiration I would like to share is the Metatron from the movie Dogma. It’s a more vile version, but man, do I love him! I’ll be sure to post a picture of Creed soon enough, but for now, do enjoy the Metatron – you’ll see where I’m coming from.