The Fate Pendulum team is less than a week away from our big reveal debut at Ninjacon 2014. As the Director/Co-writer I am going through so many emotions right now, and I thought I would share it with you all.
We’ve been preparing for our panel, finally announcing our lovely up and coming cast. We’ve been spending endless sleepless weeks preparing the content, artwork, and flyers to reach out on this project. I feel the aches and pains in my shoulder and weary eyes, but I can’t help but feel like this is one big De Ja Vu. I remember this feeling… from about 8 years ago… I remember when I first got serious about writing the Fate Pendulum novels, after the play I knew that this story could speak more to me. It’s a story about the human condition, it brings the question of the heart to both hero and villain. When my pen hit the paper there was no going back.
When it all comes down to it, I was a much happier person those 8 years ago. Because as the Birds fly, the Writer wrote, and the Director directed. Yes fellow artist and supporters, the De Ja Vu of pursuit of the dream is a very blessed and humbling experience. In the mysterious world where there are haunting pasts, cataclysmic ordeals, and aching desire for a family I have found my abode.
My lesson of the week: Keep going or your only half a person.
Muses are there to allow us to live. The chase of them alone is a rush, but a cooperative relationship with them is bliss. As life got ‘busy’ with school then work, that relationship eroded on my end. I am so gracious that my muse is strong (it helps that my husband follows the same muse, but lets leave that for another post). I look at the art from my hands and I am blown away to see that vision that has been crept for away for so many years. I see the subscribers and followers to this page and I am blown away with the support! How selfish would it be for me to have kept Fate Pendulum pent up in my mind away from the rest of you? The poor Muse carrying the stigma of being selfish, but in the end, isn’t it us that our selfish neglecting our gifts to share?
Others are just as blessed with my muses relationship as I am. For the process and the results are a journey of awareness.
If you are stopping by Ninjacon this year, please look for our table at the entrance of Artist Alley (We’ll be covered in a blue tapestry). We’ll be holding a raffle to give away 4 tickets to Ninjacon 2015! We’ll also have lovely postcards of the above artwork to take home for free. Our panel will be at 3:00 PM in Garden Room B.
We look forward to seeing everyone! Thank you once again for the overwhelming support, from the bottom of our hearts!
They’re are some things that you seem to hold on to that only you could really understand. Then there’s that moment when you think to yourself “Holy Cow, this thing is a decade old!” I wish I could say this in regards to my fixation with the character Vida, but sadly it’s grown from a hot mess to about a similar experience of a mother watching her daughter fly the coop for college.
Like most teenage girls, I created a heroine that reflected everything I wish I could ever be and then some. There was a deep secret inside of me every time the words projected on the screen that I wanted to eventually become Vida. Vida, or at the time ‘Stef’ began as a therapeutic outlet in an exchange of emails with my best friend on hot summer days. Unlike the regular email exchange, he had created several different aliases to be his comic characters, he was after all a freshman in college ready to take on his Theatre minor. The replies to those characters I would soon learn was me doing a little acting myself.
When I started to get older and my reading taste grew, I started to realize that the character that I had created of Stef was a gem in my little treasure trove of writing. I loved her because she could be honest and impulsive, and that ideal of what was a heroine started to change. Upon releasing the first play of Project Italy to the theatre world, the character of Stef was an experience of being reborn. Until this day, I think the thing that makes Vida a character of charm is the fact that she can be candid with her emotions and reaction to the events around her. This is something I think is either overly salted or rarely touched in the world of fantasy genres that I would like to think that I created a character that the reader/watcher could dive into the world without the disappointment of her turning into a ‘Mary Sue’ of a creature.
After the first play we started to write more stories involving these characters. Those stories have become the epic that Fate Pendulum has been coined to this day. That best friend had become my boyfriend, Producer, co-writer, and recently husband. While my life was changing the teenage girl dreams that were an ideal version of myself was farther from the truth. After calling her the character of Stef for so long, we had to go our ways and the name of Vida (meaning life and death) had been adopted. I can say that these early stages of the Fate Pendulum story were where she really began to take her true form. In this story she is a teenager soon to be in her twenties, and she goes through her own form of growing pains. This is a human side to the story where we see her grow up into her role of heroine.
I like to think of Vida and I being good old friends. We’ve had a cup of tea and a keyboard or journal between both our worlds for years. Except we’ve reached a point in our relationship where she’s holding me to my promise to her even after several years had passed. I need to tell her story. Thank you for all who support this blog, because in a way, you are holding me to my word. For this truth I am blessed.